School

Adult, Family and Pathophysiology? How will I ever make it? Not on my own, that is sure! Well, hope is still looming.

Not yet arrived, so it seems.

We will be studying Romans 12 in Sunday school these next few weeks. Be transformed! Here I go, no turning back!

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Trust God

I don’t know exactly what God is up to in my life this week. I do know He has a plan and I know His are with out a doubt better than mine. I’ve been searching for a while for something deeper. I didn’t know what I was looking for I just knew that I was supposed to be looking. Maybe this is part of it.

He brought me to this verse through a devotional I get daily by email from Girlfriends in God. Romans 5:3-5. Examine the storms you are facing today. Choose to rejoice in the midst of each one, knowing it is an opportunity to trust God.
I like that God gives us opportunities as opposed to constantly taking them away.

Romans 5:3-5
Not only so, but we[a] also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
(NIV, www.biblegateway.com)

So the mantra I muttered, thought and spoke for three days has been TRUST GOD. What else is there really. I fell asleep thinking this, woke up with it and walked with it through my days.

I thought I had been trusting God. I know that I am where I am and what I am and protected as I am, cared for as I am, healed as I am because I have trusted deep areas of my life with Him. I’ve shared the good, the bad and the ugly with God.

I’ve given Him every facet of my life. I can truthfully say this. But I guess there is more to me that hasn’t been given to God.

I’ve learned that the more I give to God the better I know me. Sometimes I think there is no more but apparently God says there is more.

My journey seems to be finding this out and I hope it’s amazing. I’m learning and listening as I type. Some of these ideals are new to my thoughts.

I read back and see the words “hope it’s amazing.” I’ve been hopeful lately. Probably for several months now. It’s something that has been in the air so to speak. So I guess there are a couple ways to read those words... “Hope, it’s amazing!” or as it is “I hope it’s amazing.” Of course it will be amazing whatever God wants me to see. God invented amazing.

These are some recent thoughts in my head. I pray that God will bring them together and create an amazing picture with them.

Grateful for:
honesty
hope
amazing
August as the month of shooting stars
airconditioning
slow Saturdays to think
His special words just for my ears
His love for me and my love for Him
Innocent children who randomly say “I love you momma” and “you are beautiful today momma”
8 year olds who find popsicle “Live changing!”
the Bible on my iPhone

Emo

My emotions are on the surface today. This is unlike me. I long to dive into Jesus. It seems hard to find the watering hole. I read His Word and I pray. I take a different approach and I am careful of my prayers. I don't want to ask for too much, I don't want to seek the wrong things, I don't want to pray for just me and mine. I want what He wants for me.

I want His love and I want it all. All to myself. It is selfish. But I want to wrap it around me like a blanket of fresh woven rose petals. The smell so sweet the color so vibrant and rich.

I want to hear Him say "I love you, only you." He will say it. I have to listen. I have to be still. I have to show love too.

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Soul satisfying

Spending time with my girls outside is soul satisfying.

I am thankful

• soul satisfying moments
• shelves
• tomato salad
• food from the earth

Today

Late last night through an email I shared with a friend that I feel good in my skin. I dreamed about that comment and it replayed in my mind throughout the day.

Without too much steaming of the brain I cannot really recall the last time I felt good in my skin. Maybe it was high school or my twenties or maybe it never really mattered to me before. For some reason this feeling is an accomplishment that matters.

God readies me for events that come in my life. We think of people at odd times and we are urged to pray for them. We have the feeling that we should take another road and we miss being in a car wreck. We choose to start school now for whatever God's timing is in the end. Maybe those I will be ministiring to in my future job as a nurse will be in the hospital in the next 2 years as my patient.

Maybe words spoken to me on a particular day at a particular time seemingly out of the blue are to prepare and will come back to me when I need them. Maybe they are a test of my ability to consider God's words first and then how they apply relavantly or not in my life.

Patience today is what I will practice from here on out.

Earth is painful, our desire for God is great

Inspired

God is with us in the trenches (Emmanuel). He created us with a longing for Him. How do I find Him? He speaks to me in His Word. He tells me He will rescue me. What is His idea of rescue? I ask myself. Why didn’t He just put it all back together? Why didn’t everyone choose healing from the once wounded hand of God?

From an earthly viewpoint He is 75% successful. From God’s point of view I suspect He is 100% successful. For He says He can only stand to allow suffering for 3 or 4 generations then He Himself has to step in. He steps in, in a way that is undeniable. A way which you can’t stop your feet or your mind. Your path has been chosen and you have to go down it. There is no other way to life but to go down His path to life. You see, your chosen path ends in death.

75% of our family is alive in Christ. 25% of our family is dead in Christ. Everything he said he believed and strived for is buried by his own hands, decisions, actions, desires.

The 4 generations is over for our family. The first day of the rest of our lives has come and we are on the path. The pain is great if I see it from earthly eyes. But God’s eyes reveal victory and healing.

Isaiah 61

greatful

I forgot to put this on my last greatful list...

The smell of tomato plants on my hands.
Little bitty juicy cherry tomatoes you can pop in your mouth straight from the plant!
Watching my garden grow.

We water and God gives the increase.

Summer house

This is the summer house we made for our resident fairies. We hope they like it!

Moving down the summer check list

Check these:

• Van cleaned out
• 3 summer classes
• pick up and drop off Grammy
• prune bushes
• enjoy garden
• start scrapbook

Next up:

1. Dive into iPAC to use it to its potential
2. Organize e-mail
3. Back up pictures and legal stuff
4. Find and read a book for fun
5. research kindle (can I get my textbooks on this?)
6. Have some fun with the girlies!

Things I feel I've been called to do:
Find a subject to study in the Bible
Start a nursing student Bible study

Whew!

What everyday thing are you thankful for

I've had several ideas running through my mind. Finding time to get them out is the trick.
First
A list of some things I've been especially grateful for:
The rustle of the leaves in the trees on a summer breeze
Automatic soap dispensers
Sunscreen
Aloe Vera
Children screaming and running
Technology
Dirt
Pink foam from a can kid soap (it makes the tomboy girls want to shower!)

Fall is only weeks away

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Summer

It's been a while since I have written anything. For the next 7 weeks I have nothing to do but be mom. I can't wait. I've been in summer school right after a full-time spring semester. I'm ready for my nursing classes to start in the fall. But first I get to be mom!

Thank You for all those who serve in our military and have gone before us to secure out Freedom to be American!!

Today we enjoyed our freedom by visiting out back yard water park. We have clean water to play in. Our pool was gorgeous with a bucket waterfall in the middle and quickly becomes a whirl pool with sharks. Out sprinkle pulled triple duty by watering the lawn while providing water and fun on the slip and slide.

Thankful for...
1. Clean water
2. Sunshine
3. Laughing children
4. God's provision

I have tears in my eyes. This past week my daughters were not able to hand out their invitations to our bake sale to raise money for pediatric cancer research. We were going to donate the money through Cookies for kids cancer through www.gladtogive.com. Without any other form of publicity we decided to postpone this event. Well, it didn't really matter what we did we wanted to do something.

I'd like you to check out my bestfriend's blog over at Days of Gratitude. She truly has a big heart and definitely likes to see the twinkle in another's eye. On many occasion she has seen the twinkle in my eyes and my children's. Without her we wouldn't be where we are. She has truly given of herself.

So, I am committing to sending at least 10 of those pillowcases to the seamstresses.

New

I got in!